Doubts

I can't live in those doubts any more...

sometimes I'm certain and sometimes I'm half way back...

It's proven in front of my eyes 100 times,but I tell my self this can't be true...

I wanted to scream out loud many times, pointing my finger to what is quiet clear under my nose...but something tells me "shut up! it's not enough"...

The more I see, the more I'm sure...but the more I'm silent,the more I'm loaded,the more I'm losing the common sense,the nonsense acts keep flowing out of me...

Is it the silence that causes nonsense?? or is it nonsense to be silent ?? overloading causes explosion!

When I tried to let out smoothly the steam causing the pressure within me , thinking that letting it out will bring me relief...

I was wrong...

In fact I felt ridicules...as all of it just vanished in the air and non was taken seriously...because its just steam!... vapor!... nothing!

 

Doubts are always like so...like steam...stressing with no solid existence...

 If they had solid existence they would have not been called "Doubts" they'd be called "Facts" ...

So I decided never to let it loose again, let it just fill me in the inside, stressing me... driving me crazy...

Till the explosion finally comes...

but explosions shatter things into pieces...brakes it...hurts it so bad .... that its impossible to restore it back again...

Could that happen to Me?? My heart?? My life??...

It wont make any difference... the doubts are messing me up, making me act like a fool...

and it breaks my heart with fear that those doubts are true...

and my life became tasteless...nothing is enjoyable any more...

what can happen worse??!!